Labyrinth of Miracles

The quagmire just keeps getting deeper and deeper.  Am wondering just how deep it can go.  The CEO is laying out her demands and getting uglier day by day.  She can't stand it that we are there for dad and her family won't come around.  She is trying to blame it all on us saying they don't feel welcome.  It isn't us!  Sherry had always gone out of her way to entertain the CEO's family when they come around.  Even though she would rather not!  We are being pushed away but by bit as the CEO wants total control over dad.  I really think we are going to push back.  Dad told Sherry that they don't need anyone to come stay with them when she goes home.  Except that is really the CEO's edict.  She thinks she can take care of dad by herself.  She can't see, she can't drive and she doesn't like to cook much.  She creates a horrible mess when she does cook and she can't see well enough to know that.  Her latest remark is t...

So, dad had a visitor this afternoon.  An unexpected visitor of the four legged furry kind.  Sherry said they were all sitting at the table when she looked outside and saw a bear in the front yard.  She said to dad, "you have a visitor out front, a bear!"  he didn't believe her so she repeated it.  "there is a bear in the front yard."  so he looked out and sure enough a bear was out there looking for something to eat I am sure.  He had bent the sheppards hook that had thisle seed hanging from it.  Sherry went out on the deck and talked to him and he was not the least bit afraid of her.  He even attempted to come up the deck steps so we are wondering if he will be on the deck tonight.  She also said he attempted to go in the gargage and she shot over him three times before he decided to leave.  Just going over the the neighbors to the east.  He came back once and was checking out the firepit.  She did call the sheriff to fi...

June 15, 2016 When talking to my sister the other day the subject of home came up.  Where is home?  When did you know it was home?   What makes it home?   The place, the people or is it just a feeling?  I knew where I live was home when I came here to help take care of my grandmother when she was dying.  The property has been in our family for over 100 years and we spend many summers in this area when we were growing up but I did not realize that this piece of "dirt" was home until 1998 when I was here caring for my grandmother.  I am not sure what it was that was the catalyst but something made this piece of property become "home" the only place that had a lifelong connection to family.  It was a feeling, a calling of the land that told me I was home.  It was then that I knew I wanted to be here on this property when I retired from work.  My roots are deep in this piece of property as well as my heart strings.  They go deep and s...

June 11, 2016 Today would have been my parents 72nd wedding anniversary and tomorrow I will be 699!  We wish mom had survived to celebrate this anniversary and all the ones in between.  I wish she had survived as we would not be having all the conflict that we are having in our big family.  Probably would not have changed anything with my brother but maybe Susie wouldn't have felt so estranged from the rest of us and been more willing to be a part of the family.  I have tried over the years to include her in activities but she just comes off as not wanting to be here or angry that she isn't the one in charge.  Mom once told me that Susie was the most like me and couldn't I talk to her, it didn't work!  Susie resents me the most and I sometimes think it is only because I am the oldest.  She has told lies about me for so long she actually believes them to be the truth.  I know because my daughter has in the past questioned me about them or told me...

June 9, 2016 Last night dad called to thank Ruth for the magentic Tiger Baseball schedule and to ask her if she would like to go to the casino today.  He didn"t ask if I wanted to go until this morning.  He said to Sherry he didn't ask because he knows I don't care to go to the Casino.  I have never been able to understand why he thought that as I have always been very careful to not say anything about not liking to go to the Casino.  Besides Sherry doesn't like to go any better than I do.  We are done gambeling after we lose about $40 each.  Which sometimes doesn't take very long.  And going to the Casino is not always about the gambleing as it is about spending time with my sister.  So glad Ruth was with us as she listened to the CEO's non-stop talking and she actually turn enough to show that she was not interested in have any conversation with me at all.  So I pretended to sleep on the way home!  We did come to the conclusion that ...

Today Sherry is taking dad to a medical appointment, a follow-up appointment after his hospital stay and I have been asked by dad to not go.  Which was prompted by the CEO saying she did not want me going to the appointment.  She said "the doctor doesn't like it when so many of us show up and ask to many questions"  which we know is just the CEO's saying she doesn't want me to go.  It has not been a problem when she isn't here and the doctors have been more than willing to talk to us and we do not all ask questions. Generally it is Sherry or I who ask the questions as we are the two who are here for the most part.  Even Susie has stated that I need to be here as I know more of dads medical history that she does!  But for dads sake I will not go and Sherry with get the scoop and fill us in. Friday, Sherry asked the CEO if I could ride with them to watch Camden play baseball, was going to be his last game pitching in high school.  the CEO went off on m...

A new poem for Anne on her vacation. By the sand I sit, By the sand I write The ocean  sounds to my ears delight As I sit on the beach and wiggle my toes Beaches and sand give my heart joy I bask in the glorious bright sunlight When I lay down my head for a restful night The sound of the surf makes me feel safe and secure As I dream of my mountains far to the west Those of my adopted Evergreen state.

June 5, 2016 Sorry folks but this post is going to be a bitch session!  I need to let off some steam and no one wants to hear what I have to say or how I feel.  So looks like it will be you but you can at least skip this post and wait until the next time. It seem the CEO is pulling the string again.  She has decided that I should not be included in my dads next doctor appointment.  And unfortunately dad has ask that I not go as he doesn't want to get beat up anymore by her.  Yesterday it was my nephew"s baseball game.  She decided I didn't need to go to that either, would have meant riding with her and dad over to Harrison, so she let Sherry know that I was not to be included.  In fact she told Sherry I was the worst trouble maker in the family.  That she could line up a whole lot of people from this area that would agree with her and that I talked to about her.  Sherry told her to line them up!  Of course she had to back down on tha...